Stumbling to find my balance
I can be a mess of contradictions at times. I mean, we call can, can't we? But mine feels particularly pronounced. I once had a young child look me right in the eye and say, "You're a double-minded girl!" He was, I think, speaking from an evangelical Christian paradigm, and referencing the double-mindedness that Scripture warns against. But there's a truth to it. Case in point: I consider it the very definition of unfair that these cards exist and I don't have someone who would appreciate them as a significant other. This kind of dark sensibility is a big part of who I am as a person. I enjoy books and television shows about serial killers. I once wore out a mix tape that had nothing but "Something I Can Never Have" by Nine Inch Nails repeated over and over on both sides. (Is that really a mix tape? Probably not, huh?) I named my cat Lisbeth Salander, after the antagonistic protagonist of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo . Even my very name means ...